Why would a woman who left you three years ago but whom you still sleep with at least twice a year say she loves you if she is with someone else now?

She is using you to make herself feel better. If she really loved you she wouldn't be with someone else. She wouldn't make you question the situation. Futhermore, You obviously lack self-esteem and she manipulates you. Ask yourself this do deserve someone only 2x's a YEAR? Do you not deserve a healthy,full-filling, companion who will love you every day in front of everyone?