Why would you often think about torture?

Answer 1

It is perfectly normal to be intrigued and think about torture, death etc, and in fact many people associate pain with sexual arousal, although not often to the degree of actual physical damage. You are probably thinking about it more and more because it is a taboo subject, you like the excitement that thinking about it brings you. You need to stop thinking about it as taboo and dangerous, and realise it is probably only your mind testing your consciousness to see its reaction. When you start thinking of it, associate it with something boring, like washing up, after a while it wont seem so exciting, and you will think less about it. Many people find the calculating exercise of controlled, planned power intensely erotic, and there's nothing like inflicting extreme pain for making it clear who's boss. However, unless you want to get involved in bdsm make sure it remains a fantasy. Even if you get involved in bdsm always stick to the key principles: safe, sane, consensual. It's most important.