Can a sociopath be a Christian?

Answer 1

I'm kind of an agnostic, because it's hard for my kind to believe in the divine. But one thing I get: if the universe came into being from one singularity that exploded in the Big Bang, that impetus or power of motion, creation, and destruction -- and change, endless -- came from that first singularity -- which, in turn, HAD TO HAVE COME FROM SOMEPLACE!!! That means that everything that exists is vested with the power that is the momentum from the Big Bang. In some cases, it's this incomprehensible thing called life; the animus; the body with spirit, whatever that is. I surmise that this power that is in everything might be God. As to its purpose, I have no clue.

I was forced to choose for good, forced by my own life's circumstances, to decide whether I wanted to go on living knowing what things I could most likely never have (things almost everyone else has and may even take for granted, and cannot conceive of living without), or die by my own hand or by that of another, all because I could not accept life without what gifts I'd never known.

I had come to a point where I had recovered from a serious mental illness as much as I could, receiving the best help available to me, but knew that the chances of altering the massive damage done to my nervous system and brain were almost nonexistent. ALMOST.

But it isn't the hope of finding the impossible to be possible that kept me alive -- it was the realization that if I died now, I'd never get what I'd lost anyway, so what good would dying do? Plus I'd quite possibly never get anything else.

Even for a deeply religious person, which I admit I am not, or for a deeply moral person (which I have no choice to be, given the nature of my condition), suicide is not generally considered the 'moral' choice for dealing with personal loss; there have been exceptions throughout history, but these were mostly in religions which, unlike Christianity, believed in reincarnation, so that death was not accepted as a reality at all! But I do not believe in reincarnation, and even if I did, why would ending "this" life help me or anyone in the "next"?

So, I chose to live, because if I am to have any of what life offers, it follows that I must be alive to do it!That is true not only for me but for you and for everyone in the world.

Anything else -- miracles or more losses; surprises or disappointments; inspiration or heartbreak, or simply a sense of peace -- will have to follow on that first decision: to accept being alive, which is BEING. (To beis to exist is to live.)

As soon as you die, change as we know it stops. (The change which is the disintegration of the body without life is not, after all, something that is experienced by the one who has died, but, rather, by those he or she has left behind, who, like myself long ago as a very young child, are often severely traumatized by the witnessing of the death of another person, and must struggle with it for a long time.) Life is over. It exists only in a fixed and immovable strip of time. In the present and future, life of the one who has just died exists only in memory -- the memories held by those who live.

As long as we continue to live, we have no real way of knowing that life will remain unendurable. That means we have hope, if we can perceive it.

Remembering this is what helps prevent people from committing suicide -- or murder.

Life is worth everything.