so hey, im actually sixteen years old... and i have been dealing with intrusive thoughts from a really young age. and im pretty sure its ocd, i have read other people experinces and ect. i couldnt relate more, its just that when i turned 14 it become so much worse, i thoght it will become better.. but its really really really hard. so my thoughts dont really make any sense.. it can be existential quesions, sexual quesions, sometimes im scared to do somthing scary, habits like counting numbers and touching things many times. i really dont want to deal with it anymore, i felt ashamed for having this... i was so counfused so i didnt talk about it. (i cant explain it with words, but its really frustraiting)
i have changed a lot since i was 14 because of this, i didnt want to go to school, i didnt talk to my friends, and not even to my family. it made me socialy anxious, what peole might think of me.. it was a really weird year for me. everyday is another day of 'surviving', hiding it from others and not showing it. trying my best to stay cool in school, im my house and with everyone. and i have managed to deal with it myself, piece by piece i try to pazzle myself again.
i have been a lot worse when i was younger, beaceuse i had no idea why i was so anxious all the time and what does it mean, and why cant i just ignore it... so i wrote this because right now i have been on the verge of teers. because i cant wake up in the morning... i dont have power to do my homework, and im not doing really doing with my new class in high school. I guess its because i avoid everything that triggers my intrusive thougts.. but i cant take it anymore, and i want to do somthing about it, i waste 70% of my day thinking about those thoughts and i am not able to enojy my life. and it makes me miss my old life, the old me, my friend.. and just living my life.
i really want to talk about it with my parents or my sisters or someone.. they are always there for me but its hard to explain them such a thing. everyone deals with their problems.. i tried once but i gave up on that. should i talk about it with someone?
so i tried getting an advice from social media. thank you very much for reading this, this comment might be very long and messy, but im very grateful :goodluck:
you can say hey i think your cute and i think we should talk more
hey i think so but its hard to find
well, to start with, do not look her in the eyes. then think about someone you like while you are talking to her and your experience may be heightened.
(i dont have and idea how) how just say what you wanna say ig?
Breathe by Rowan!
hey john look should we talk this path or that one
Hey, if the girl you like kinda likes you you should ask her to go to the movies or a dance; somewhere you to can hangout and talk!
generally you tell he person "Hey, can i talk to you? its important." or if you guys are close just be like "hey, seriously, blahblahblah." and make sure hey know you mean it.
When he comes around you just say "hey" and then when you qet use to talkinqto him then your friendship with him will become stonqer.
ooi! (Call this to someone) nee, (say this as you would say, 'hey, so, what did you think of blah blah?') x
no, because he'll think you don't trust him and that you have been email stalking him. if you want to talk about it bring it up in a diffrent way like bringing up the topic in his email in another view and maybe he'll start telling you like" hey someone sent me an email about that .what do you think it means?"
Say "Hey can we talk"