Since your question is under 'sexual abuse' then you are terrified of getting to attached to another person because of the trauma you have been through. If you aren't seeking counseling then please do as it's very important in order for you to learn the tools that will show you the signs of the good and bad in people and the people whom you can and can't trust. You are a victim! It's important that you realize that just because you had one abusive relationship it doesn't mean you will have another. Learn from this bad experience and consider the fact that now you know for sure what you don't want in a relationship.
I was married once to a verbal and physical abuser and divorced him. Although I needed time to center myself, get to know my own weakness' and strengths, I refused to let one man make me a man-hater (this goes for abused men as well and they shouldn't let one abusive woman make them a woman-hater.) I dated and made many male friends and eventually married a wonderful man that I've been married too for almost 36 years.
e is defo scared of getting older nd going BALD thats my fear too!
Do things.
He was getting too attached and didn't think he was worthy of you. He left to get over you, if you have some feelings for him then you should be upfront about it to him.
You are too emotionally attached to a stranger which is not healthy and need to regain perspective.
I'm scared of them too! Scared of getting one and am always taking off my tight work shoes and looking at my feet to make sure I'm not getting one. Also I am also keeping by girl from wearing pointy shoes for fear she will get one!
We grow attached to people with whom we have fun. Young men can be put off by too evident displays of attachment, strangely enough. Check that you do not too visibly 'cling' or get bossy. It's even a good idea to visibly be friendly with two or three young men. Then they will have no thoughts about your getting getting too attached. But the idea is NOT to get people jealous. Bad idea! Good luck!
checks and balances
I too have a fear of dying but I recommend you seeing a psychiatrist. Phobias can be helped.
this means he doesn't like you and he is just trying to let you down easy!
me too
i'm too scared to answer
The only way to get over fear is to face it. Over and over again. Take a deep breath, make sure you have a spotter, and just go for it. It might help to read techniques on how to do back handsprings, too.