Alethophobia is the fear or dislike of the truth.
This could go under "Sociophobia" which is the fear of social evaluation. This in turn might be the true reason why you fear telling people how you are feeling in the first place, for fear of being judged or ridiculed.
Mansour Javid was a prominent Iranian poet and writer known for his works that blend Eastern and Western literary traditions. He wrote poems, novels, and plays, often exploring themes of love, spirituality, and freedom. Some of his most well-known works include "Rustam and Sohrab" and "Garden Dweller."
I haven't seen referenced any specific name for "fear/phobia of reality". However, the good news is no one stops you from "inventing" it, the way the other phobias' names (and many, many other words) were invented.The most common way of naming a phobia is to use the Greek word naming the object of that phobia and the -phobia suffix.Greek for reality being πραγματικότητα(transliterated pragmatikoteta), and for real, πραγματική (transliterated pragmatike), you can safely use pragmatophobia to name the "fear of reality".As an alternative, the Latin words for the object of the "fear" have been used...From that point of view, you could use realitophobia (coming from the Medieval Latin word realitas, initially a juridic term for "real estate", derived from the Latin word res, a generic term roughly equivalent to "thing/things"). But that sounds a little too "plain" if you ask me. LE: Ups, I just found out the word "pragmatophobia" was used by the Polish philosopher Zygmund Zawirski in the very title of one of his books, Symbolomania and Pragmatophobia. And, as a personal note: I took "fear of reality" not in the sense of actual fear/terror (like arachnophobia, the fear of spiders, for instance), but to mean the denial of reality, hiding from it, the unwillingness to acknowledge certain aspects pertaining to reality.