What do you do when you and your friend are gay men and you keep competing against him even though he is the more confident one when it comes to winning over other men?
This is quite common even with two women who are friends and
vying for the same men, or two heterosexual men vying for the same
women. It's all about "the chase" and it's always been a game of
sorts and part of the excitement of landing someone you are
interested in. Most friends male or female are in competition so to
speak. I feel you are trying to say that your friend is very
self-confident and finds men easily, while you seem to ride off his
coat tails and don't seem to have the confidence to go after
someone you are attracted too. As long as your friend doesn't mind
and you don't have disagreements over it, then there is nothing
wrong with this. However, it sounds like you want to strike out on
your own and find men that are suitable to you. You have to sit
down quietly and ask yourself what type of personality you are.
There is nothing wrong with being shy and a little unsure of
oneself when it comes to the dating department. I'm heteroxesual
and I enjoy men who are a little on the shy side. I find shy men
more sensative and caring, than the all-too confident man that can
ride a little off his own ego. You have to realize who you are, and
accept that. While your friend is probably out-going and
confidendent, you may just be shy and feel ill at ease about
yourself. When admitting you are gay, there are also times you may
wonder if you really are, because it's a difficult road to travel
when you are gay. I have male gay friends who are very dear to me,
but not one of them hasn't pondered and wondered if they just made
a mistake about being gay and are really straight. In many cases
the man is gay and can't get use to the idea of it because, again,
the road can be difficult, but things are getting better in society
about these things. Perhaps you have too many questions to ask of
yourself that interfere with your self-confidence, so until you sit
alone, think about it all (even write your feelings down on paper
and read it a week later) you will never truly know yourself and go
forward with a clear mind. If you are sure you are gay, perhaps
it's time to go out with a different friend to the clubs you
frequent or to parties. Either that or strike out on your own and
see what you are made of. You certainly don't want to ruin a good
friendship with this friend of yours. It also wouldn't hurt you to
communicate your feelings to your friend and perhaps they could
shed some light on the way you feel. My simple suggestion (and it
is simple) is just be who you are and don't try being someone else!
There will be many that will find you attractive enough. Good luck
Marcy Simply put, stop competing, because when you're competing
you're never going to find a special guy and be happy..You guys are
friends, just enjoy yourselves and stop this silly competition,
that will eventually hurt both of you. You are an individual who
deserve the best. Best only comes when you're honest and confident
with yourself!