How do I better understand myself and what I want from life?
Your life is very special indeed. God has given you it as a blessing that many others wanted but was not as lucky as you. Focus on yourself. You can make a list of all the negative things that has happened in your life, then make a list of all the good things that have happened. Examine all the bad things and try to figure out if it is possible to fix the things and make an effort to try. (You will be rewarded in the future). Whenever you're thinking about yourself always think about the future because the past is already gone and maybe things are happening now as a result of the past. That's why its important to always think about the future now so you won't regret anything. As far as what you want in life-- only you will personally be able to answer that question. You just have to look deep down inside you and try to find out what you enj666oy doing and what would make you happy. Then block every negative thought and find out ways that you can achieve it. However you must always think about what will make you happy.Answer Unfortunately, no one can give you the answer to that but yourself. The way to try and realize that aspiration varies from person to person. Some people have an enviable ability to find their own niche and are content but for many others including myself the only way I could really appreciate what I truly wanted was to experience life in all its many facets. I would recommend that you read a book - "Siddarthar" - and perhaps it may give you some insight. Only once you have seen and experienced a great deal can you appreciate what you truly want to achieve with your life and the sad fact is that often it was always there before you right in front of you without you realizing it.