Are you thinking of "malice"? Maybe "animosity"? Or "loathing"?
Resentment.
The word disgruntled means dissatisfied, discontented, or upset, and is notably used for a disgruntled ex-employee, to mean someone who feels misused and may still harbor ill will against a previous employer.
The noun "animosity" means ill feelings or dislike.
The noun 'bitterness' is an abstract noun as a word for a feeling of deep anger and ill-will; a feeling of resentment; a word for an emotion.The noun 'bitterness' is a concrete noun as a word for a harsh, unpleasant taste.
A feeling of deep and bitter anger and ill-will
It is to 'ail'
ill will or bitter resentment, hatred rancor is a noun
Grudgingly
The word "sick" means the same as "ill." Both terms refer to a state of being unwell or experiencing health issues. In a broader context, "unwell" can also be used as a synonym for "ill."
That is not a word. The actual word would be unsuitable. It means inappropriate.
Yes, the word "grudge" contains the letters "u" and "d," which can be interpreted as a short "you." However, it does not contain the entire word "you." The term typically refers to a persistent feeling of ill will or resentment toward someone.
You are full of Malice wishes. Malice means ill will.