Cheated on your boyfriend and feel so bad?

Answer 1

When I cheat on my boyfriend, part of me feels bad. I cheat because we get into arguements and I feel like he is cheating on me. I really have no interest in other guys other than they make me feel like I am worthy. Sometimes I sleep with them for the excitment and to somehow take advantage of them. Mostly to fill an empty void I have. I hate to feel lonely. I really hate to think about my boyfriend finding a girl who is better/more attractive than me. We had a rocky start to our relationship...he was married and I was selling myself to him. He was constantly partying and going out to strip clubs with all his single, drug induced "friends". But he told me he loved me. He left his wife and kids to be with me. It's hard for me to trust him. Which is why we have broken up soo many times. I don't know why I go back. I was never really faithful to him because everytime I was I seemed to regret it. We try to just be friends but somehow I end up becoming his girlfriend after just having dinner with him..then comes the accusations and lies..at least I think its lies. I dont really know what to believe. I don't know if I want to be with him or not. I love him and I know he loves me...we both have trust issues which is why I feel bad when I cheat. I feel like I am betraying myself. If I could be faithful and honest I think I would be a better person instead of just giving up. He has helped me a lot and he is the only person who has not given up on me. When I have sex with him, its Love. When I am with other guys, I just feel like a cheap who**. So, I cheat because I think he cheats...but I regret it when he makes me feel like he has been faithful to me.