You were close friends for a while then she noticed that you have a crush on her and you were going out for more than 6 months you ere talking to each other 50 times a day but general conversation and?


so we were close friends for a while then she noticed that i have a crush on her and we were going out for more than 6 months.. we ere talking to each other 50 times a day but general conversation and one night we were both drunk and had sex... we didn't discuss at all after, she left the city but we were always in contact every day for more than 3 months... and when she came back, i asked her out again and never said no.. we went out drinking, having fun and making out.. but i felt that she won't do that again with me, which I can easily understand.. but after 2 weeks i had to ask what are her feelings toward me.and she answered right away "just friends" and she doesn't wanna loose me as a friend.. she said some other mean stuff that got me mad and told her that i don't care about her at all and i don't even need her friendship and she didn't talk to me for 2 weeeks after .. AND this all may sound normal.

But 2 weeks after i still don't understand why'd she text me mid night telling me that she misses me and want to see me ... why would she talk to me on a daily basis telling me about how her day went or hows life at school. .honestly hearing anything from her makes me the happiest person on earth
but I AM LOOSING MY MIND bec i cannot picture her with another guy and i also tried to be with other girls but i can't stop thinking about her...
when shes out drinking she'd tell me she misses me.. but next morning she'd be talking to me as a classmate .

I miss her so much but I don't wanna push my self harder that I might lose her.. I don't know what to say.. or what to do ?

Thanks for your answer in advance