Abuse always starts with ill-words.
No spouse like to be treated such way.
The way your spouse is paying you back to what you did to her is the level of how HURT she felt.
Now all you need is patience. And start communicating, in the most mature way.
Stop using ill-words, not even to yourself, then you will learn to respect anyone in your entourage, mostly your wife, you love her don't you, so you should protect her, but not be the one who harm her.
Harming is not only physical but also psychological and emotional, which leaves scars as huge as a knife can.